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I can’t sleep because I’m experiencing before sleep anxiety… I had what is commonly referred to as a sleep paralysis episode on Sunday night, and even though I took my usual Ativan before bed tonight, I can not relax, and just had a bit of a panic attack (I have to take an Ativan before bed to help me relax… because of my last, particularly terrifying and unfortunately prophetic sleep paralysis episode back in 2016… at least it’s my last suspected one. I had another one since that may or may not have been one - I knocked everything off of my beside table during that one, so the paralysis part didn’t happen - hence why it’s debatable). :confused:So that’s why I’m here right now. I know that being on devices before going to bed isn’t exactly a good thing either, but I thought talking about it (or rather posting about it) might make me feel a bit better and help relax me enough to start to try to get ready again for bed. I have had these episodes periodically since back in University, usually years apart. On Sunday night I had two in one night. I woke up from the first, calmed myself down by watching/listening to the tv for a bit, then went back to sleep and had the exact same sleep paralysis dream. I know they aren’t real. At least I think they aren’t. I hope they aren’t. Logically I know they aren’t real, and I know the whole medical explanation behind them. But they are quite terrifying. So if you see me here when it’s stoopid o’clock my time in the next little why, now you’ll know why.